There is still about 1 hour and 30minutes to Christmas. I hope you would receive my letter on time and make my tiny little wish come true. I have been a good boy throughout the year, cross my heart cross my fingers and all i want for this Christmas is just 3 wishes. Can i have it?

First, i wish for a white Christmas, in my near future.

Second, i wish that during next Christmas, i can finally celebrate it together with someone special, someone there for me to hold her throughout the night, enjoy the beautiful night scenery together, unlike this year.

Third, i wish that you will be as strong and healthy and handsome as you will ever be so that you can grant me 3 more wishes next year :)

Love,

Good boy XD

23rd Nov,

0800-1100hr, Pengajian Am Paper 2: Flipped through my graph book for revisions on graph and nothing else. (NOTE: its FLIPPED through, not read). Overall its quite easy but i drew a wrong thing on the graph paper. It requested for "carta yang sesuai" and i gave a "graf yang sesuai". ZzZ

25th Nov,

0800-1030hr, Physics Paper 2: Studied 20+hours non-stop except to washroom and meals, no sleep no entertainment since 24th until exam. I guess i can score 20-30% more marks compared to my trials. Quite satisfied when i stepped out from the asylum that day.

1st Dec,

1400-1630hr, Chemistry Paper 2: Studied 20+hours as well, with the aid from Sta*Bu*ks Coffee again of course. All i could say is Chemistry is one hell of a killer and i think i might get worse result compared to my trials. *sigh*

6th Dec,

1400-1600hr, Pengajian Am Paper 1: The one and only way for me to redeem myself after making such inexcusable mistake at Paper 2. Studied from cover to cover, i THINK it paid off. After the exam someone got hold of the answer, no one where did the answer comes from (at least i don't know anyone that does) , and i nailed 50 out of 60. Some crazy dudeS got 52, 53, 54. I have no words to describe them =.=

9th Dec,

0800-1100hr, Mathematics T Paper 1: How ironic it is that maths, modern and additional, were my best subjects in upper secondary, never once dropped lesser than 70 if memory didn't fool me, did not help me survive my maths in form 6. Did full revision before i sat for it though i did forget some during the exam, i surely hope i can return to my original standards when the STPM result comes out.

14th Dec, (2 papers in one day=what the hell are the Ministry of Education thinking?? Kill us?)

0800-0945hr, Physics Paper 1: Definitely did my revision, but i think destiny has its way to torture us. Its here to torture me after Paper 2 failed to do so. If Paper 2 is 6 out of 10 then this definitely score a 9 out of 10. It definitely had fun torturing me.

1400-1700hr, Mathematics T Paper 2: Full revision as well. Miracle happened this time. throughout form 6, i had never been able to complete the whole paper during exam(except the very first in form 6 which was totally obvious our teacher is going easy on us) and i completed each and every question on the paper although i have a few question which i have totally no idea what it wants from me but at least i scribbled something XD.

16th Dec,

0800-0945hr, Chemistry Paper 1: Remember when i said destiny makes up for it when it failed to screw with us the first time? It definitely enjoy screwing us for the second time. Paper 1 is no different from Paper 2, another assassin to murder us all T_T

1000-i don't remember hr, WAR: water gun, water filled plastic bags, flour, 'champagne' more water and more flour. Celebrations after almost 1 month of suffering.

命运看穿了爱情 才开始飞行

夜空洒满了星星 但没几颗流星

一辈子有多少次叹息

遇见你 我无法呼吸

这都是你不知道的事

你不知道我为什麽爱上你

它坚持不能说放任我努力

它的祝福像 倾盆大雨 撒落满地

无形里清晰

你不知道我为什麽守候你

徘徊在你看得到的远处里

多的是 你不知道的事

命运看穿了爱情 才开始飞行

夜空洒满了星星 但没几颗流星

一辈子有多少次叹息

遇见你我无法呼吸

这都是你不知道的事

遇见 你我无法呼吸

改篇自：王力宏《你不知道的事》；《恋爱通告》

灵感源自于：让我努力的她

Quick review on what happened during the past 2months, enrollment of my junior, playing cards, handing over the club to the next president, pulling pranks on my friends, tortured by exam, pulling pranks on my friends again, dueling, e-shopping, pulling more pranks XD

Honestly, i don't even know if i've gotten over myself being single. Its almost 9 months since i declare myself single and i'm pretty sure i've got over it but recently, sigh

During a recent Tuesday after a physics lesson, i usually am the last guy to leave the place for me being a gentleman ( don't deny that please ) will always wait until the last lady has gone back and there she is, a rare occasion, being the last to have gone back. As she was waiting, she made a few phone calls which is normal, and then i heard her talking with such gentle, pampered tone (she was talking at a distance so near me and i did not eavesdrop) into the phone like the way she would talk to me 9months earlier. Then recently, i've confirmed that she has finally got herself another guy. And i thought i've gotten over everything, which i should have but i did not.

So what is wrong with me? I'm not blaming her for recovering so fast after a relationship, nor am i upset with anyone else. I don't plan to get myself any girlfriend for the sake of having a girlfriend, but i can't help but notice a lot of great, gorgeous, sexy, beautiful, hot whichever you would prefer to address an angel, is already in a relationship. Sometimes i would just ask myself is it just me or there are someone else that are categorize as the unwanted homosapien and start laughing at myself. Something is definitely wrong with me and i just don't know what.

PS/ there won't be much free online manga soon, all thanks to the licensing, which include naruto, bleach and one piece as well. anyone else knows where can i read the translated version of manga online? do let me know if you know any.

Slowly, the attraction will evolve into fondness and this is where the interesting part starts. They will start to notice the special 'aura' emitted by the other person and they will start paying attention towards each other.

After fondness, the bond mature into like, which many people confuse it as love, this is the part where they start seeing each other, or u can call them taking each other as collaborating partner ( an interesting phrase i learnt from someone else), a.k.a. girlfriend/boyfriend, when u want to see each other as frequent as possible, want to be in touch as frequent as possible, want him/her to put u in his/her top priority in whatever thing he/she is doing, practically, u want to own that person all to yourself.

The final stage would of course be love. This would be a challenge for everyone because not every couple can reach this stage. When u truly love someone, u will think of her/him, miss her/him, look at something from his/her point of view without u knowing it even when u are having fun with your friend, just like u breathe in fresh air each and every now and then in your life. When u do this, then i would believe that is love.

In my life, i've had experience all of it, well maybe except the final part of it. I may not be an expert but one day, i hope i'll be able to experience love, do u?

Why do i suddenly go from all those ranting and chanting of myself to this issue? Well that is because i've seen a lot of friend ( mind you, is A LOT of friends ) suffering from gastric so i decided to become a good person for once (yes i've always been a very bad person) and find out what to do if mister gastric visits your tummy. Many rumors say get milk because it is alkaline so it will neutralize the gastric acid.

Today, i heard something shattered..

life is like a walk path,

all we can do is to continue walking the path,

without knowing where will it lead us to.

3 years ago,

there was this corridor that i dreamed of walking together with this person alone,

when we need not worry of being seen by anyone else,

but that time, it was totally impossible.

today, we went to the same place, walked the same path,

and today, there were only the two of us only.

What is different this time was that in our heart,

we were not in the same position as we used to put each other in our heart.

we both have moved on,

and after today,

i finally understood one thing.

life is too unpredictable.

6 years ago neither of us could imagine we would know each other.

5 years ago neither of us could imagine we would have each other in that special position.

4 years ago neither of us could imagine we got that separated in life.

3 years ago neither of us could imagine us having this walk.

2 years ago neither of us could imagine we would become friends again.

1 year ago neither of us could imagine we would have the chance to talk to each other again.

just 6 years and here comes these unpredictable outcome.

what would happen after another 6 years?

will i still be single? or will i get married after an 'accident'?

or 6 more years after that?

will i have a steady income? or will i become a beggar on the roadside?

how about another 6?

would i have reached the peak of my life? or would i be 6 feet under the ground already?

**sigh**

Well i'll just straight to the point now ya.. Today, i treated myself a movie with the title "Ice Kacang Puppy Love" , a Malaysia movie.

Throughout the movie, there is laughter, in fact there's something to laugh at almost every 15 minutes, and there is also time when it made my nose sour, making me feel as if i'm gonna cry(but i did NOT cry XD).

After a movie(especially a love story based ones), i'll usually match it with my life and see how lucky i am (sometimes to envy their life too) although i know perfectly well its just a movie.

Well, undeniably:

1. i live in a better surrounding, but i haven't got any talent as the people in the movie has,

2. my first love is puppy love, i don't deny that but at least i know its my first love(if you've watched the movie, you should know what i mean and if you don't, watch it again and pay extra attention near the ending when the narrator speaks),

3. i haven't got girlfriend as stunning as the 'Botak' has, in fact i don't have any girlfriend now XD.

4. i haven't had the experience of which i had to separate with someone i love, hopefully i don't have to experience it, though there's someone i'm waiting for who is quite far away from where i am now..

Sneak Peak:

<—a scene from the movie, a funny one

Now frankly, here's what i've got in mind about this movie:

1. this movie has got no amazing special effect, but it definitely has a story line that beat most movies with super great special effect on a rather shallow story.

2. for those people that watch special effect of a movie rather than its story line, this is not your type.

3. there's always joke lying around the movie but you must really know some the Malaysian culture/hidden secret to laugh out loud at some of the jokes or else you'll just scratch you head when other audience laugh non stop.

4. i can't believe i'm saying this but this a great movie!! There is finally A Malaysia made, filmed, with all Malaysian actors and actresses (i think) that i can proudly say yes that movie is from Malaysia.

耳机装上，听着听着，

漫画翻着翻着，看着看着，

听到了熟悉的旋律，竟是S.H.E. の恋人未满...

悄悄地，

眼前的漫画已变成我脑海里的其中一个回忆画面

一张字条，

写着陶喆爱の[很简单]歌词，

也写着S.H.E. の[恋人未满]歌词，

也写着5566の[我难过]歌词，

瞬间，她的面容竟然再度出现于我脑海里。。

当年，或许年少无知，或许时机不对，或许不够成熟，

Finally know why does the tv seldom play the whole series of drama in a short period of time.. In my life, I've tried watching dramas in one go for 3 times, and all these 3 times gave me the same feeling. Somehow, i felt real down, depressed, and emo all of the sudden. How? As if there is nothing else to expect in my life, as if my life just collapsed together with the ending of the drama.

I don't really know what to expect in my life at the moment.. All i could think of is the highlights of the drama, and at the end of this Conder Trilogy , which I am sad to say that i've finished reading all the other 2 novel as well, made me feel even more depressed, just like i lived in the novel together with the characters inside, and when i come to the end of the books, it's just like me dying together with them, like someone i knew passed away, like it's the end of my world.

Near the end of The Heaven Sword and Tiger Sabre, there is this one sentence which really got into me like others could not:

Ever felt lonely out of no reason?

Ever felt lonely out of a sudden?

Ever felt lonely and wanna have someone there beside you?

Ever felt lonely and wonder where is your true love?

Ever felt lonely and wishing your special someone is just beside you?

Ever felt lonely and wanna cuddle your beloved 'collaborating partner'?

Ever wished that there is someone there for you to hold while crossing the road?

Ever look at the vast sea wishing that there is someone right there holding your hands?

Ever tried star gazing and wonder what is your crush doing at the moment?

Have you ever felt all those above????

Well, as a matter of fact, i have felt each and everyone of it and they don't come rarely..

I may give you the impression of being tough but i'm still human..

I may give you the impression of rough but don't think i'm not sentimental..

I may give you the impression of psychotic but don't think i'm emotionless..

I may give you the impression of a stalker but don't take me as a real one..

I may give you the impression of a frivolous man but don't think i'm not serious about you..

I may give you the impression of giving you no personal space but thats because i love you too much to leave you..

I may give you the impression of cool, out-of-reach guy but deep down i still need someone there for me..

I may give you the impression of someone who is bold behind the written words but if i were given the chance, i will show you i am as bold as being behind the written as well as behind the spoken words..

I may give you the impression of a pessimist but thats because you are not here to make me an optimist..

Feeling that was born from 5days of interaction may sound frail but for it to hold for more than 12months, i'd take it as personal humiliation if you were to say that such feeling is frail..

The first step is mine. Will the second be yours?

I am 1 of the shocked ones. However, feeling that i might be feeling so because i have noty watched The Hurt Locker so finally, i've got the chance to watch it. And after watching for about 40minutes, which is just about one-third of the full movie length, i have decided to stop the movie.

The reasons are :

1. the starting story line is kinda shit, i see no creativity because i can even tell whats gonna happen next even before it happened!! (for all the Hurt Locker fans out there, this is seriously what i felt)

2. the camera-person for that movie is a real ass. I don't mind if the scene is shaky during chasing, or explosion but WTF with the all time shaky scene??? Even for a online shooting gamer such as myself got dizzy after 40minutes of it. If i were to finish the whole 2hr movie, i'll definitely have my dinner out on the floor, trust me.

3.there's no third reason. The first is forgivable but my second reason is all i need to mark this movie as JUNK. How the hell are we gonna watch this movie if the camera-person is having Parkinson's disease???

^

^And i find this disgusting.

i might look like this one day ^.^

Few weeks ago, i went to cinema for 'Avatar' with a prejudice gain from its trailer : just by looking at the blue skin people i've lost my 'appetite' for the movie. And after 2hr and 43 minutes in the cinema, i'm awestrucked, mesmerized, petrified and whichever you may use, by the effect of the movie.. Perhaps this is what people say being too deep into the movie and some would call it the 'Avatar Blue'.. i have to admit, i might've experience slight 'Avatar Blue'.

Why?

2 days after that incident,

1. i snap my shoelace and i have no idea how i did it!!!

2. walk on stairs and just some how missed a step and landed myself with a bruise!!!!!

3. fell down in class just by trying to pick up a few plastic bag!!!!

can u believe that??????????

and yesterday, when we were under the shade gossiping ( yes u're right guys gossip too XD ) i found out that i wasn't the only one being unlucky..

1. a girl, who was suppose so get her STPM result this year, couldn't celebrate CNY anymore. She was banged by a Mat Rempit and passed away a few days ago. Yes the Mat Rempit got caught by the public on the scene, it ( firstly i don't know that person's gender and i don't wanna be a sexist and secondly, whoever that did it does not deserve the title of existing as a human being) managed to escape from the police in the end however.

2. an old couple was on the motorbike and they fell after being overtake by another motorbike which was ridden by 2 students ( students of the school i'm studying in =.=!!! ) early in the morning, the uncle rolled over to the safe side, alas, the aunty rolled to the wrong one and was ran over by a van ( i think ) that was right behind them and it means literally RAN OVER, right over her head and imagine the scene in your head..blood, bones, BRAIN everywhere.....

3. Don't forget Alexander McQueen. You don't need me to tell u what happened to him...

What does that mean? For many other people, they might still be in CNY mood, but for the people around the unlucky ones, CNY will be nothing but a memory of the death of their loved ones.. sigh..

Why????

1. Couldn't wake up on time in the morning for school.

2. Phone got confiscated at school and now i had to use a borrowed phone(not that it not good but my own phone feels better)

3. Vending machine ate my money while it worked so well for others

4. Spilled my water (it was pre-championship and i was involved in 3 events plus full exposure under the sun from 8 to around 11) = super thirsty

5. Fell asleep accidentally and couldn't complete my homework!!!

All these things happened in ONE day!!!

Can u imagine that!?!?!!? All in one day..

Now i've heard of it some time ago from someone (i don't remember who anymore so u can imagine how long ago was it) that one's fate in one year(the chinese year) has already been deicided. Which means how lucky u will be, how sick u're gonna be, how many accident will u be involved and so on..

AND now, its approaching the end of one year and approaching the next, so does it mean that i've got debt in my 'luckiness' account and its coming for me before it expires??? If so then i'll have to be prepared for the upcoming days for what is worse, OR WORSE, is it because that i've got too much unluckiness in the following year that i had to pay in advance????

Damn it reminds me of Final Destination..

totally clueless about blogging,

its not supposed to be talking or boasting,

but look at what i'm doing,

i'm finally blogging,

isn't that fascinating?

what is this feeling?

the feeling that u can write anything,

yet have to worry about ISA arriving,

stopping at my doorstep and start knocking,

Now this is something worth writing...

more is coming,

maybe next morning,

or it might be evening,

but for the time being,

hope u've enjoyed reading!!!